I remember playing with an older neighbor boy. I was about 8 years old. He was at least 14. I would go to his house to play, and we would be alone when his mom went shopping. He taught me about jerking off. He had an awesome cock, and he would lay on the sofa naked and jerk off until he blew his youthful wad on his own chest. I would stroke him, and he would stroke me. I wish I wasn't afraid of sucking at that age!!! I would go home, and I would jerk off in the bathroom. Every time I was close to cumming, I would stop because I didn't understand the feeling. Finally, I went all the way, and DAMN! I blew a big load! I have been blowing massive loads ever since. Every time I fuck my wife or a guy, I leave a massive load in their holes. I am very bi and very versatile these days. If I only knew back then what I know now. Shit, college life could have been much more fun!

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I know that!

I was so scared in college of anyone finding out I was into guys. Back then gays were "queers" or worse and AIDS had no treatments and I was still trying to convince myself that I was going to "outgrow" the fooling around I had done with buddies and I would be happy to settle down with a girl - but I knew better.

All those hot guys in the dorm - I wonder how many of them would have been just as into it as I was - or perhaps more - but I was too busy making sure no one caught me looking in the showers.

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I have thought often about the bi guys who were experimenting in college, and how they would have been hot to play with. I could never be gay because I love tits, ass, and pussy, but playing with cocks and asses is equally as exciting for me. During my single years I had my own apartment, and I could have entertained as many fuck buddies as I could possibly want. Now, I have to meet up clandestinely at hotels, in gyms, forest hiking trails, public locations, and rest areas.

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I have often wished I had been braver and (slightly) more open back in college. So many hot and horny guys there I am sure I was not the only one wanting to play - but the fear of being stigmatized was so strong back then.

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No doubt, a little knowledge back then could have changed my sex life for the better. Unfettered cock sucking and fucking would have made my college years much more bearable. Back then I was experimenting more. I would have topped and bottomed repeatedly while sucking and being sucked. I would have gotten over my concerns about swallowing, and I would have been sexually liberated.

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I knew I wanted it - craved it -

But the fear of being labeled a "fag" and the fear of AIDS made me spend way too long not making a move and a few times being scared to react even when thinking back I am pretty sure the other guy was hinting at it. But back then it was assumed that all gays were like Liberace - and that did not fit my image at all!

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They can call me whatever they want. I love sucking cock!!! I love getting sucked. Fucking? Love giving and receiving. I just want to be able to have man sex when I want it without having to go into the woods, or in some stall in a public restroom. This is why I look for guys who want to hook up at their homes or in my hotel room when I travel.

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