Dexter
 

There is a book serial that has turned into a Showtime serial about a serial killer who kills serial killers. His name is Dexter.

His true self so loathsome he talks about living behind a virtual mask, in hiding, always putting on an act to blend, to avoid suspicion. Always on stage, losing his sense of self, no feelings, no relationships, no meaningful contact ... a "hollow" man.

Caught in a lie he falsely admits to being a user and joins a 12 step program where he finds many parallels with substance addiction and his addiction to murder.

And that got me to thinking there is yet another anology, this could well be the story of a bi-sexual male in the USA. Our hideous nether life. Not gay, not str8, always in denial, in fear, in hiding. Living behind a mask, never admitting who we are, to others nor to ourselves. We too are "hollow" men.

I live life as a series of one-line wisecracks. A life of rhetoric. What I see the night before could well be "me" the next night. A spinning maze of booze, drugs, poppers, tobacco and dark anonymous xxx theaters. All carefully choreographed so I can blame everything but me.

mmmm the urge
 

im happily married for 20 yrs but my urge to suck another mans cock and take his cum all over my face amd in my mouth is sooo strong i have to persue it about once a month the gay baths are perfect for me

Good to know we are not alone. I'm planning to meet some friends for lunch tomorrow. At least that's what my wife thinks. I'll be cruising the bookstores and theaters looking for some cock to suck. It's been this way for so long now, and I sometimes wonder if she knows, but just doesn't want to confront me with it.

I see a friend regularly and am married. I tell myself that it's not cheating because there is no other woman and what I get from Frank, I can't get from a woman. Since I have a regular hookup, I don't do the bookstores or theaters anymore but am tempted to stop in to suck someone anonymously or maybe more.

I am married to a woman who abuses alcohol. Haven't had sex with her more than 10 times in the last 10 years. Gay sex to me is a great relief, but it sure would be nice to hook up with someone for regular/irregular sessions.
As it is, I have to go to the ABS when I can & that's not frequent enough and potentially dangerous.

Aside: it's gotten so quiet around here... is everyone at xtube or on craigslist? :confused:


This is an interesting thread. I haven't been able to talk about these issues with anyone. But I have wondered if other guys find that their need to pursue sex with other men correlates with the frequency (or, rather, the LOW frequency) of sex with female partners (wife, gf, other).

This is certainly the case with me. when I'm with my gf and have sex with her daily, I'm not tempted to cruise online. But when that doesn't happen or I'm not dating anyone, I'm looking for action everywhere. :eek: ;)

When I'm doing my wife less frequently, I look online for guys much more, however, it does not reduce my interest in getting fucked by a guy. Some weekends, my wife and I will go away and fuck like bunnies. If on Monday morning, a friend called and wanted to get together, I'll be where ever he wants me and needing to get fucked.