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funny how my first sexual experiences have influenced my sexual fantasies and sexual encounter scenes which i've craved all my adult life.

my first sexual experience was at the age of 12/30 yo with another school chum. i would dress up in my mother's clothes and makeout with my friend. lots of rubbing and jerking off. i assumed the femme submissive seductive role.

my next encounter was several year later as a 16 yo. i dated and had girl friends. then i had an experience in a mens room in the park. i stood at the urinal trough peeing. this guy comes in and comes to the urinal. i don't pay much attention to him. then i caught a glimps of his cock through the corner of my eye. it was so much bigger than mine. plus, it was hard. i got turned on. i got nervous. zipped up and left. i was embarrassed but turned on nevertheless. that night, i jerked off to fantasies of playing with his cock. i couldn't believe myself.

i ended up going back to that mens room. i would play with cocks. let guys play with my cock while they jerked off. most of the guys were in there 40's. hairy. bellies, hairy balls and cock ... and very horny.

i found myself acting like a girl with them. while laying in bed at nights playing with myself. i would fantasize scenes of men entering my bedroom and having their way with me as a girl. i decided to wear a pair of my mother's panties during my next outing. i picked red lacy ones.

so the next sat i showed up in panties and a little bit of my mother's red lipstick on. a guy walks in. i look straight ahead while standing at the urinal. i felt his eyes perusing me. i felt very sexy, but different. i was afraid a guy might think i was silly that i wanted to wear panties.

so, this guy whips out his cock. he steps slowly towards me to see what my reaction would be. i don't move. he inches closer. i soon feel his hand against my leg. i look towards him and reach over and grab his cock. he moans. i let him kiss my neck. he turns towards me and begins to pull down my shorts. he sees im wearing panties. he calls me a sexy bitch boy. he pulls me into one of the toilet stalls. it smells like piss and sex. there's a spent condom on the floor. i pull off my gym shorts and straddle the troilet and allow this guy to fondle me he pull down my panties. slaps my ass a few times. ihope no one walks in). i soon feel his cock pressing against my ass. he wants to fuck me but im to scared and nervous. i turn around and start sucking his cock. he shoots his load on my lips and face. he says thanks. zips up and leaves. i clean up and soon leave.

so, now i find myself reinacting those same scenes as a tranny crossdresser. hot annonymous cock sucking in cars with dates, a few hot tranny motel party scenes, group and 1-on-1, a few hot lap dances at clubs, feeling a man's hand slip under my skirt and fondle me, a night of hanging with the street whores, wanted to turn a trick but didn't, a night at a local gay porn theater all dolled up ... dark, annonymous, multiple hard cocks, sucking fucking and loads of cum ...