For the past few months I have been becoming more and more anxious and am now convinced that I have contracted HIV from sucking so many cocks over the years in the bathrooms and cinemas of Bangkok. I have never had any sympotms or been sick at all (which I know means nothing), but I cannot seem to shake off this feeling. I think it is fuelled by guilt, as I have a partner that knows nothing of my vile behaviour. I have now stopped all of these activities, mostly out of shame, guilt and also becuase I am now anxious beyond comprehension that I am HIV positive. I am terrified to have a test, as I fear the worst. I wish I was not such a nutter.
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