My biggest problem was in my head as much as my butt. I had a difficult time mentally accepting that I was willing to get fucked. I had been able to convince myself that what we had done jerking and sucking was just horny guys - it was not gay it was just being horny.
Getting fucked was different - there is no denying that was gay. It was not easy to align my idea that I was straight but horny with the fact I let my buddy fuck me.
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