[elbert_12]

My best friend I have known each other for 5 years. We
(guys) are extremely close to where we feel like
brothers. We’re both married. I consider myself bi
curious. We’ve had moments over the years where we’ve
caught each other staring at the other. He’ll take
showers (in a glass shower) without closing the doors.
He pretended to dry hump me, he’ll tap my crotch, flashed himseldf front and back. he wanted to do a threesome with me and an old girlfriend though i didn't know until it was too late.
Sometimes when we’re alone he’ll play with himself right in-front of me. usually when we're in separate beds in a hotel. he
even talked about a movie where two guys had sex "they
were both married so they weren't gay, just curious."
last new years were both VERY drunk. i ended up
performing oral sex on him while he was supposedly passed out. i'm pretty sure he knew what was going on since he giggled a little and said my name. he was a little weird for a couple
of days then fine. another time in a hotel i rubbed
him through his shorts and got him rock hard while he "slept." he did open his eventually, i freaked and stopped. the next day he
was so sweet to me, putting his arm around me and
everything and being overly warm. even our wives tease us about being boyfriends. his wife has started trying to separate us from hanging out even sitting together. she found out we shared a hotel bed (when i jacked him) and all of a sudden he requested separate beds which sucks. he talks about how she never wants sex with him. I know he knows i want him and i know he
wants me to do something but i'm scared. i don't think i'd lose him as a friend if he rejected me but I'm still scared. we would never leave our wives but i would like some physical contact. it's very Brokeback Mountain.