I do not like being put in the spot of reproving myself after 8 years but I do understand 8's fear of hurting 25, so I am going to take advantage of the situation ,feel it out and see where it goes, for MY advantage, I'm tired of being MISERABLE.
Right now 8 and I have a secret commitment to each other, we are free to see others if we wish and date with no intimacy /sex with anyone other than each other until sept 23.
I am going to try and enjoy the company of 8 and enjoy life as long as I got it.I'm lucky to have a guy like 25.
If I decide it is not what I want or feel things are not going good I know that now or Sept, 25 is there for me.
If I feel because I'm getting older I need a commitment sooner and 8 will not give it too me I may need to tell him to walk and have a happy life.
Yes, there are times knowing 8 and 2 months are talking or going on a date that my heart hurts but I know our commitment and I know 8 cannot live with himself if he was to lie, he is the most HONEST person I ever met to others, just wish he could be more honest with himself.
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