Sounds like you are just what this board needs. Forget your job. I can tell from the high number of posts here alone, you have seriously embraced this aspect of your life.

And as for the psychiatrist, forget him. He'd just want to work with you for years and years and years. I am sure he'd tell you that there are layers of issues here and no quick fixes. Besides if you follow your calling, you wouldn't really have the money to spend on his services anyway.

Keep cruising so as to be able to help others with all the knowledge you gain firsthand.

As for disagreeing with doctors, think nothing of it. What do they know? The cemetaries are full of people who think like you do, so you have a lot of good company.

Oh, and don't worry about being perceived as abrasive, intrusive, long-winded, lacking social skills, mental acuity, personal hygiene or political clarity. Just keep posting. You gotta make sure others are able to recognize that you fulfill a unique niche on this board and all others. Every town needs its village idiot. We are happy to embrace you as ours.