I am a healthy 40yo WM. All my life I have been terribly attracted to women. Indeed, the sight of a beautiful woman still takes my breath away.
However, over the past year I have experimented by going to gay baths and spas. I have had several M to M sexual encounters. They are quick and nameless, and immensely enjoyable. In particular, I have developed a real love for giving head. In particular, I enjoy taking a hit or two on a small vial of poppers, and then surrendering my mouth to a man.
I am not interested in any sort of relationship with a man; in fact, I do not want to know my partners' names and I do not even want to speak with them: I simply drop to my knees and perform. Once they finish, we never meet again.
My habit now requires that I go to a spa at least 2 times per month. I have sucked off as many as five guys in a 4-hour setting.
My question is this: Am I gay? I think that women are beatiful and I am not attracted to men. I simply love the feel of a cock in my mouth.
What does all this mean?
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