remembering my 1st time, didn't like it, stung, and afterwards uncomfortable for a time. Was told ya gotta do it a few times.... did, never liked it but it did get a little easier, but I abstained from it for years. Then someone talked me into letting them, he did it quite differently (played around, poked a little, worked the lube in... slow and gentile...) ,,,and, ok, a little uncomfortable start but no pain, and then hummmmm.. I could get into this! Now I don't hesitate as long as they are not very thick. (Length just seems to make it easier and a nicer stroke sensation)

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My biggest problem was in my head as much as my butt. I had a difficult time mentally accepting that I was willing to get fucked. I had been able to convince myself that what we had done jerking and sucking was just horny guys - it was not gay it was just being horny.

Getting fucked was different - there is no denying that was gay. It was not easy to align my idea that I was straight but horny with the fact I let my buddy fuck me.

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I wonder after all these years whether ChiBurbsGuy ever did follow through. Reading the thread reminded me of my first time. I had some experience inserting things (even vegetables) so I was familiar with anal stimulation and liked it. So I wanted to get fucked. But letting a man actually insert his dick into my ass was so different. A bit of anxiety, overwhelming desire to please the guy (who I was really into anyway). My desire overtook some discomfort, and it introduced me to a source of a lot of pleasure since..

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There are so many old threads where I really wish I could get an update - some of them the person put so much time / thought / planning into it - and we never know if he got the courage up to act or just went back into the closet.



It is strange to think about those early days - such a different world. I really wish I could go back and talk to the guy who was my first - partially to apologize for all the BS which was all my issues with trying to accept that I was willing to get fucked.

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